Regret

Today’s request on “Writing 101” was to write a piece starting from a word in the list. I chose regret.I’m at home, sick, with fever, a splitting headache, a cold & a sore throat. But I went running, only 4 hours ago. Don’t even ask where I found the strength, because I’m wondering the same thing. I wasn’t fast (from the 4km ~ the beginning wasn’t that bad) but I kept going for more than 10km. And now? Now I’m at home, I found out I have fever (I didn’t know that when I went running) and pain all over my body. Do I regret that? Not at all.

In my life there are a lot of things I regret, things I have to fix, a list wouldn’t be enough, but I don’t regret today.

Yes, I regret not having taken care of my body for 5 years. But I’m changing that habit, step by step.

Yes, I regret every single bite of junk food I have eaten. But I’m eating healthier right now.

Yes, I regret the days I didn’t go running, the days I didn’t train. But this week I trained every day, even with fever.

Yes, I regret arguing with my dad that day, before the 18km, yes I regret that so bad.

I regret that the last words I told my mum were not polite. I regret so many things. But not tonight.

I have eaten healthy today, I trained, I have been kind to my dad, I am spending quality time with him. I have given a little thought to my mum and I hope she will be proud of me. Today I decided it’s time to stop regretting about lost opportunities. Today I decided it’s time to live.

La richiesta di oggi di “Writing 101” è quella di scrivere un pezzo partendo da una singola parola, tra quattro. Ho scelto rimpiangere. Sono a casa, malata, febbre e un mal di testa terribile, raffreddore e mal di gola. Ma sono andata a correre, solo 4 ore fa. Non chiedetemi dove abbia trovato le forze, perché me lo sto chiedendo anche io. Non ero veloce, (dal 4km, in realtà l’inizio non è stato tanto male) ma ho continuato per oltre 10km. Ed ora? Ora sono a casa. ho scoperto di avere la febbre (non lo sapevo quando sono uscita a correre) e ho dolori ovunque. Lo rimpiango? Per niente.

Nella mia vita ci sono tante cose che rimpiango, cose che devo sistemare, una lista non sarebbe sufficiente, ma non rimpiango oggi.

Sì, rimpiango di non essermi presa cura del mio corpo per 5 anni. Ma sto cambiando, passo dopo passo.

Sì, rimpiango ogni boccone di cibo spazzatura che ho mangiato in vita mia. Ma ora sto mangiando più sano.

Sì, rimpiango i giorni in cui non sono andata a correre o non mi sono allenata. Ma questa settimana mi sono allenata ogni giorno, anche con la febbre.

Sì, rimpiango di aver litigato con mio padre quel giorno, prima dei 18km. Lo rimpiango così tanto.

Rimpiango che le ultime parole dette a mia madre non fossero gentili. Rimpiango un sacco di cose. Ma non stasera.

Ho mangiato sano oggi, mi sono allenata, sono stata gentile con mio padre e ho passato del tempo di qualità con lui. Ho pensato a mia madre e spero sia fiera di me. Oggi ho deciso che è tempo di smetterla di rimpiangere le opportunità perse. Oggi è il momento di vivere.


  

Have A Safe Journey!Love,

Camilla

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6 Comments Add yours

  1. Marquessa says:

    You are strong! If I were sick, exercising would be the last thing on my mind! Nice post!

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    1. Camilla says:

      Thanks! Once you start it becomes an addiction and exercising will make you feel so well that you never want to skip a session.. Today I had to honestly, but I baked some healthy goodies… Stay tuned for the recipe 😘
      Love,
      Camilla

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    1. Camilla says:

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